waiting

as i stand here between disney store and H&M i watch the people walk back and forward. noticing the tiny details that goes between them. i couldnt help but wonder if one passer by one of these people rushing down oxford street like a chicken with no head, would in some twisted form of fate be linked to me.

moms dragging there kids out of the store. a husband standing outside h&m waiting for his wife, couples who have out of the blue decided to start making out infornt of all 5alg allah. i stand there waiting, waiting and more waiting. i wait for him to pass by. but i didnt find him.

today carnaby street london england. i saw him the person ive been waiting for. he noticed me first i didnt know until he stood there looking at me like a crazy woman. he had every right to to look at me like that. i was looking for in3al zanoba wintow ib karama. i loved my shoes and all but my feet where killing me.

white tshirt and shorts i think all i saw was his face. it was perfectly chiseld like a micheal angelo sculpter. it was only a second inwhich both our eyes connected but it felt like forever. we met twice on that street. but i wanted him to follow me. he was the one that was supposed to be waiting for me too.

you know that one person you know the one you dream of at night. we all have one but we never admit them. i saw mine today and maybe maybe i might see them soon. i know my blogs seem total random and not as intreging as most other blogs are but atleast what i write has something which means something to me.

you guys if you have some one to love then love them if youre waiting for someone to come and sweep you off your feet then thats ok but love them from now. love them like youve never felt love before. the world is your oyster make the most of it please.

i am clincally depressed i do obsses over stuff that have no meanings. im your normal screwed up person who is barly functioning in life but screw this. atleast ive counted my blessing tired everything and wont stop at nothing to get what i want. i do see a shrink i do live a double life but my double life isnt as hidden as it may seem.

this is a failure attempt at a blog but i dont care atleast i said whats on my mind.